Over it.

It's over. 1st quarter. The thing that has occupied every bit of my mind heart and soul for the past 2 and a half months. and now a little break before it starts all over again. Everything was down to the wire, last minute, sleepless. i was even late to my critique. I was actually excited to go to critique and interact with the panel of judges, but once I stepped into the room I could tell it wasn't going to be such a fun endeavor. Tough crowd. I felt like show and tell to 8th graders - lots of bored looks and cynical remarks. My double CD set "feels like a coffin". My other CD package had "no real content or character". Two of the four judges said they didn't even see my animal in my precious DA poster. Well, I don't need to go on all the negatives, 25 minutes of brow beating could take up a lot of time. I think a few positive things were said, but with all the stress and chaos and lack of sleep, it didn't stick. There was a truly grumpy lady on the panel - made Sylvia look like a saint. She said that I paid attention to texture, so it show I learned "something".
So, I've had a day to reflect on it, and I'm feeling pretty down. I know everyone is elated it's over and out celebrating, but I see no reason to celebrate, and I'm pretty isolated from theo people anyway. Pig and I did go out for LaFonda margaritas, and if it wasn't for him and a small circle of friends, I would be utterly depressed. Needless to say, I'm dreading the next critique. I put everything into these projects, so I'm not very excited about moving forward.
Give me a little time for some more rest, and I'll see if my mood improves.